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Monday, July 31, 2006
another short post for today! suddenly feel like blogging once more, cause i'm like pretty energetic after my 4hours nap! i'm such a pig! haha, 'love at 0degree' really rocks man. just finsihed watching.
"i like uu, i like uu, i like uu...I LIKE UU!", so sweet and loving if someone were to say that to me, but highly impossible, lol.
and seriously, zheng xue'er sucks lah, just another hypocrite. but still kinda pity her, cause the person she trusted much actually two-timed her and betrayed her. well, she received her retribution for her wrong-doings, and i think she's gonna receive more? yeah.
well, nothing much now. so bored, don't feel like doing work at all, putting it simpler, i'm slacking.
CYER GUYS!
"i like uu, i like uu, i like uu...I LIKE UU!", so sweet and loving if someone were to say that to me, but highly impossible, lol.
and seriously, zheng xue'er sucks lah, just another hypocrite. but still kinda pity her, cause the person she trusted much actually two-timed her and betrayed her. well, she received her retribution for her wrong-doings, and i think she's gonna receive more? yeah.
well, nothing much now. so bored, don't feel like doing work at all, putting it simpler, i'm slacking.
CYER GUYS!
if only time will go back.
to the time where the world belongs to us.
ever so sweet and loving.
with no others, but only us.
time freezes, when our love is in the air.
if only..
okay, here i am again! haha, let's start from yesterday. well, woke up early to go to the temple and pray. it was pretty lame, but it's my religion, so yarh, i've no choice. my mama said that it's for the seventh month spirits, including my ahma, so that she's able to reincarnate or something. so in another words, i also did it for my beloved ahma lah. after parying, i rushed to woodlands regional library to do project along with limying, shiting, gladys and huineng. i'm running late, but it's only ten minutes, not too bad though. anyway, went to do the pairwork for the tribute of the Mr. Lim Kim San and it was not really nice, cause we practically rushed through it as i need to leave quite early. we are gonna redo it, decided on today, cause the result is not really satisfying.
so yarh, met amelia, jiayan, ben, amanda, sinren and junhe. and as usual, ongjunhe was late again and made all of us wait for the NOBLE him. haha, walked around causeway, played arcade, bought some essentials, took some neoprints, nothing much, then headed for jiayan's rosewood condo. the evironment was quite pleasant there. wanted to go BBQ, but before that, we pushed ben down into the small swimming pool, and something unexpected happen. and i'm so guilty-conscious, cause i don't mean it for it to happen at all. but then yarh, went to eat the food that jiayan's parents had BBQ-ed for us, and i was starving! not only me, everyone was starving, haha. so we had fun in the air-conditioned room which jiayan's father had booked, and enjoyed ourselves in there. we were like playing musical chairs, 3s game, action-guessing game, doing some stupid videoing and many more.
it's was really fun-filled! we looked like some kids that haven't played in their whole life before, haha. but amanda and sinren had to return home first because their parents were unhappy. so we went night swimming afterwards, but only me, junhe and jiayan swimming. wow, it's my first time! haha, cause my mama don't allow me to swim in the seventh month and during night time, saying what some water ghost will dragged uu into the water and drown uu. and amelia is indeed supertitious! well, nothing much afterwards, bathed at jiayan's house and her father drove each of us home. thanks, uncle. i was totally dead-beaten.
today, nothing much happened. just that not very happy about philipng. he is an total idiot. god! firstly, he changed my whole project and wanted to me to do a turtle-shaped mini vaccum cleaner. and he handed me the piece of wood to shape it into a turtle shell. and finally, after much hard work, i've completed it. and guess what crap he said? i think it's very difficult, change into what 'follow the black line' car, and i was like "WHAT?!", after everything uu then tell me change?! and later on, he added, "i'll give the wood to my other student.", and seriously, i was totally pissed off. the mould that i've painstakingly shape it was to give to another pupil, this teacher is INSANE! argh, forget it then.
so for the rest of the day, there's nothing much. it's just BORING-, except there's some new discoveries. then goodbye, peeps(:
`HAPPY BIRTHDAY, to someone out there!
so yarh, met amelia, jiayan, ben, amanda, sinren and junhe. and as usual, ongjunhe was late again and made all of us wait for the NOBLE him. haha, walked around causeway, played arcade, bought some essentials, took some neoprints, nothing much, then headed for jiayan's rosewood condo. the evironment was quite pleasant there. wanted to go BBQ, but before that, we pushed ben down into the small swimming pool, and something unexpected happen. and i'm so guilty-conscious, cause i don't mean it for it to happen at all. but then yarh, went to eat the food that jiayan's parents had BBQ-ed for us, and i was starving! not only me, everyone was starving, haha. so we had fun in the air-conditioned room which jiayan's father had booked, and enjoyed ourselves in there. we were like playing musical chairs, 3s game, action-guessing game, doing some stupid videoing and many more.
it's was really fun-filled! we looked like some kids that haven't played in their whole life before, haha. but amanda and sinren had to return home first because their parents were unhappy. so we went night swimming afterwards, but only me, junhe and jiayan swimming. wow, it's my first time! haha, cause my mama don't allow me to swim in the seventh month and during night time, saying what some water ghost will dragged uu into the water and drown uu. and amelia is indeed supertitious! well, nothing much afterwards, bathed at jiayan's house and her father drove each of us home. thanks, uncle. i was totally dead-beaten.
today, nothing much happened. just that not very happy about philipng. he is an total idiot. god! firstly, he changed my whole project and wanted to me to do a turtle-shaped mini vaccum cleaner. and he handed me the piece of wood to shape it into a turtle shell. and finally, after much hard work, i've completed it. and guess what crap he said? i think it's very difficult, change into what 'follow the black line' car, and i was like "WHAT?!", after everything uu then tell me change?! and later on, he added, "i'll give the wood to my other student.", and seriously, i was totally pissed off. the mould that i've painstakingly shape it was to give to another pupil, this teacher is INSANE! argh, forget it then.
so for the rest of the day, there's nothing much. it's just BORING-, except there's some new discoveries. then goodbye, peeps(:
`HAPPY BIRTHDAY, to someone out there!
i've plucked out my courage.
and yet, how things go in future.
we'll leave to the noble Lord.
but i guess, perhaps in future.
uu won't say i understand uu the best.
well, uu know it in your heart.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
well, i've decided to upload some pictures cause i think my blog seems kinda dull without pictures. so yarh, enjoy.
okay, this is my adorable brother with a lollipop.
my sister and me. my eyes seems to be of a different shade eh? haha, cool.
me and my piggy family which is always there for me during night-time. love them! there's more piggys, but the camera can't capture it, haha. but don't concentrate on me, cause i look ugly in this pic.
my eldest sister, my brother and me! do we look alike? many people comment that we do, but anyway, my brother had this dreamy look on his face, looks weird.
my dog, xiaohei and me! he looks more cute in reality, cause he dislike taking pictures, haha.
hmm, that's all for now(:
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okay, this is my adorable brother with a lollipop.
my sister and me. my eyes seems to be of a different shade eh? haha, cool.
me and my piggy family which is always there for me during night-time. love them! there's more piggys, but the camera can't capture it, haha. but don't concentrate on me, cause i look ugly in this pic.
my eldest sister, my brother and me! do we look alike? many people comment that we do, but anyway, my brother had this dreamy look on his face, looks weird.
my dog, xiaohei and me! he looks more cute in reality, cause he dislike taking pictures, haha.
hmm, that's all for now(:
pluck the star down for me.
be the panda for me.
ur arms only for me.
i won't believe another single word,
that comes from out from ur mouth.
i've finally see ur true colours.
Saturday, July 29, 2006
it's just another day. i've been doing homework in the morning, cause i woke up quite early. must be because i had an early night yesterday night at 11pm, haha. i don't know why, fridays are the most tiring day of all the days in a week. everytime after CO, everyone seem so dead-beaten. lol, are they mentally or physically tired? search me, but i'm definitely both tired. well, anyway, had a filling lunch with my mama at the hawker centre and went back home le. so here i am, using the laptop after perparing the soup for tonight's dinner.
i was chatting with -zheng earlier on, and we talked a little about something called 'FATE' and 'DESTINY'. i was wondering, when people reach a dead end, do they choose to leave their fate to Lord, rather than fighting for their happiness? is our destiny in our own hands, or at the hands of the noble Lord? but the fact is, do fate and destiny really exist? or is this just an excuse for human beings because they are too cowardly to face reality? well, the answer for all this question only lies with whether uu believe in fate and destiny or not? however, personally, i do believe partly, because it's all fate that bring two people to meet, and destiny to be together(:
sometimes when one hold things too tightly and thus can't breathe, the best thing to do is to relax and let it go. even if one let it go and it fly away, be glad that one is once able to hold it in ur hands. don't let one meet the dead-end of one's life, for one's already at a lost. things do change, either positively or negatively, and how one look at it affects one greatly. whether one's able to adapt and digest the changes depends on how well one face it. one will never be able to meet the dead-end of one's life, as long as one's able to take things by one's stride and make the best out of it.
i don't know if i'm able to, but at least, let me survive through every obstacles of my life that Lord had prepared for me, so that i'll be able to learn what Lord had wanted to teach me. Thanks Lord.
i was chatting with -zheng earlier on, and we talked a little about something called 'FATE' and 'DESTINY'. i was wondering, when people reach a dead end, do they choose to leave their fate to Lord, rather than fighting for their happiness? is our destiny in our own hands, or at the hands of the noble Lord? but the fact is, do fate and destiny really exist? or is this just an excuse for human beings because they are too cowardly to face reality? well, the answer for all this question only lies with whether uu believe in fate and destiny or not? however, personally, i do believe partly, because it's all fate that bring two people to meet, and destiny to be together(:
sometimes when one hold things too tightly and thus can't breathe, the best thing to do is to relax and let it go. even if one let it go and it fly away, be glad that one is once able to hold it in ur hands. don't let one meet the dead-end of one's life, for one's already at a lost. things do change, either positively or negatively, and how one look at it affects one greatly. whether one's able to adapt and digest the changes depends on how well one face it. one will never be able to meet the dead-end of one's life, as long as one's able to take things by one's stride and make the best out of it.
i don't know if i'm able to, but at least, let me survive through every obstacles of my life that Lord had prepared for me, so that i'll be able to learn what Lord had wanted to teach me. Thanks Lord.
now that i've know what's on ur mind.
i get to understand what's the meaning of letting go.
only when i let go, i can experience great happiness.
with or without uu.
cause uu don't make a single difference at all,
since the day, uu left me for her.
Friday, July 28, 2006
well, today's just another average day. and yeah, lessons are as per normal. then went to the coffeeshop beside northpoint. don't really enjoy the lunch though, because i think the coffeeshop is kinda flithy, warm, noisy, polluted air, etc. anyway, i don't like coffeeshops, definitely not on my top list of eateries. later on, we visited the pet shop and the puppies there are so adorable! haha, and there's this rabbit which is so damn fat and looks like it's laying eggs? lol, so cute! haha.
returned back to school on the bumpy bus, and went for CO. don't really like it, but i survive through. i was appointed as the plucked-string leader! LOL, surprise huh? despite all the number of practices that i've skipped, my bad attitude, and everything, but i'll go for my practices in future, to keep the promise i made to myself(: next week, i had to meet miss see along with the others, i guess, for a peace talk. hmm, i wonder how it will turn out?
`people tends to miss the best part of life because they are always not contented, but i'll be contented enough if my life will fall back into pieces.
P.S. CLEMENT LIM ROCKS! THANKS LOTSA!
returned back to school on the bumpy bus, and went for CO. don't really like it, but i survive through. i was appointed as the plucked-string leader! LOL, surprise huh? despite all the number of practices that i've skipped, my bad attitude, and everything, but i'll go for my practices in future, to keep the promise i made to myself(: next week, i had to meet miss see along with the others, i guess, for a peace talk. hmm, i wonder how it will turn out?
`people tends to miss the best part of life because they are always not contented, but i'll be contented enough if my life will fall back into pieces.
P.S. CLEMENT LIM ROCKS! THANKS LOTSA!
i'm really in a lost, lost my sense of direction.
i don't know where to go on from here.
give me time to think how to carry on.
zip `em up, words can't explain.
don't let it be, for Lord's sake.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
is changing of url the lastest trend currently? haha, everyone seems to be changing their url. but anyway, today's boring. started off with this lady on the 858 bus, who happens to have body odour i assume, because she smells horrendous. and guess what? she stood beside me, and was squeezing me all the way, forcing me to stand nearer and nearer to the guy beside me. god, and i had to endure with her odour.
we had a creative writing contest during contact time, it was pretty stupid. i guess it was mainly because i'm done with it in only ten minutes and i'm off to my dreamland, haha. everyone is quite tired today, i don't why too, but that includes me! i'm was practically dozing off at mr ang's mathematics lesson, he was like chanting away non-stop. okay, perhaps he's not chanting, but that was what it sounds when i heard it in a semi-conscious state.
but then yarh, went for lunch with amelia, then sinren and tammie joined us later on. and there was this northland girl selling to us those DIY stuffs, and i jollywell bought one, if not like very embarrassing mah, cause it's only 50cents! the mini-camera man was there too, flimed the whole process of us purchasing the thingy and the girl teaching us how to the flower. it was totally =.=, but hilarious in between though(: nothing much after that, parted with amelia and went for CO. god, it's so uninteresting, the teacher didn't teach much either. headed for home afterwards, and it was raining.
when was the last time i've played in the rain? i can't remember.
and yeah, rahimah rocks! paul twohill rocks! hady rocks! jonanthan rocks! okay, in short, i'm trying to say, SINGAPORE IDOL ROCKS! but that excludes those who can't sing like those who are out TONIGHT! woolala`thanks lord. zhengxue're sucks man! weixiang rocks too! ((:
we had a creative writing contest during contact time, it was pretty stupid. i guess it was mainly because i'm done with it in only ten minutes and i'm off to my dreamland, haha. everyone is quite tired today, i don't why too, but that includes me! i'm was practically dozing off at mr ang's mathematics lesson, he was like chanting away non-stop. okay, perhaps he's not chanting, but that was what it sounds when i heard it in a semi-conscious state.
but then yarh, went for lunch with amelia, then sinren and tammie joined us later on. and there was this northland girl selling to us those DIY stuffs, and i jollywell bought one, if not like very embarrassing mah, cause it's only 50cents! the mini-camera man was there too, flimed the whole process of us purchasing the thingy and the girl teaching us how to the flower. it was totally =.=, but hilarious in between though(: nothing much after that, parted with amelia and went for CO. god, it's so uninteresting, the teacher didn't teach much either. headed for home afterwards, and it was raining.
when was the last time i've played in the rain? i can't remember.
and yeah, rahimah rocks! paul twohill rocks! hady rocks! jonanthan rocks! okay, in short, i'm trying to say, SINGAPORE IDOL ROCKS! but that excludes those who can't sing like those who are out TONIGHT! woolala`thanks lord. zhengxue're sucks man! weixiang rocks too! ((:
world is full of unexpected surprises.
i'm back to square one again?
don't let it be him
i'm still hesistating.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
sometimes, i really don't understand why peeps like to put words into my mouth. i mean which eye (the left or right?) have uu seen me pointing my fingers at uu guys? don't make a fool out of yourselves. and one more thing, if uu didn't look at her at the first place, how would uu know that she's looking at uu? don't make groundless accusations, speak for yourself.
1. definition of conscience: (n) The awareness of a moral or ethical aspect to one's conduct together with the urge to prefer right over wrong.
2. definition of malign: (v) To make evil, harmful, and often untrue statements about; speak evil of.
-special thanks to dictionary.com.
i'm sick and tired of everything that's happening. it's just the same old stuff everyday. those bunch looking at us with those sickening eyes, parroting us non-stop, trying to give people a kick from behind as if the person doesn't notice it, etc. c`mon, who are the ones being childish here?
1. definition of conscience: (n) The awareness of a moral or ethical aspect to one's conduct together with the urge to prefer right over wrong.
2. definition of malign: (v) To make evil, harmful, and often untrue statements about; speak evil of.
-special thanks to dictionary.com.
i'm sick and tired of everything that's happening. it's just the same old stuff everyday. those bunch looking at us with those sickening eyes, parroting us non-stop, trying to give people a kick from behind as if the person doesn't notice it, etc. c`mon, who are the ones being childish here?
i really can't bear seeing uu in this state.
yet when i thought of the situation now.
i'm in a lost.
cause i've already lost my trust in uu.
uu disappoint me, totally.
are uu some two-headed freak?
Monday, July 24, 2006
some people just have too much time on their hands, and thus spam my blog. but of course, not only my blog was spammed, it's same case for my wonderful friends. i just find it amusing that all those taggies in my taggie, are all written by ONE person. isn't that kinda dumb? fancy self-directing and do one-person act? can't uu do awfully better than this pathetic act? sad case, i sympathise uu, lad. but i assume that uu're a female? nah, it's none of my business. if you're unhappy with me, jollywell stop visiting this blog of mine. i don't need such peeps like uu to visit anyway. hope i won't meet uu again in my taggie(: and yeah, perhaps the next time uu feel like visiting again, use the name given by your parents to uu alright? it's a waste not to use it, or do uu find it some a shame to use your name? well, don't use my name for your dumb act, it's just too holy for that.
GOODBYE FOR NOW.
GOODBYE FOR NOW.
uu said uu trust me.
uu said i understand uu best.
are all these empty talks?
i feel like throwing away everything.
including the memories we had.
uu doesn't know how much it hurts.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
long time didn't post le, so i'm back now! haha, friday's racial harmony day! quite enjoyable and fun-loving, perhaps because i'm celebrating with a different group of friends? yeah, but as usual, with 2g peeps. it's also a day whereby mr danielgoh and mr tanhongpeng, two great teachers leaving chungchenghigh. quite a pity, i must say.
although mr danielgoh didn't teach 2d, but having some encounters and laugher-sessions with him, he's a terrific teacher, not to mention he's also the only male teacher who wears low-waist 'pants' and fashionable tops, haha. had another laughing session before he left, at the yishun bus interchange, because we escort him there. 2g's gonna miss him badly, but they will see him pretty soon in september's holiday at his condo! whoa(: and don't forget- mr tanhongpeng, the only male teacher that resembles chicken little, with beady eyes, quite attituded at times, but can get along well with students and gossip along. he's also a very caring teacher too. well, also had a mini one-to-one talk with him at the staff room before he left, and found out that he live so damn near to chungchenghigh. haha, got chance must go visit him, and of course, wish him all the best at NIE(:
"all things have a good and bad side of it, rather than looking at the bad side of everything and thus missing the good side, why not cherish the time and look on the good side instead?" -by mr tanhongpeng(: i'll remember it, always.
"bitches!" -by mr danielgoh, LOL.
`nineteen07twothousand6, 4FOUR(:
although mr danielgoh didn't teach 2d, but having some encounters and laugher-sessions with him, he's a terrific teacher, not to mention he's also the only male teacher who wears low-waist 'pants' and fashionable tops, haha. had another laughing session before he left, at the yishun bus interchange, because we escort him there. 2g's gonna miss him badly, but they will see him pretty soon in september's holiday at his condo! whoa(: and don't forget- mr tanhongpeng, the only male teacher that resembles chicken little, with beady eyes, quite attituded at times, but can get along well with students and gossip along. he's also a very caring teacher too. well, also had a mini one-to-one talk with him at the staff room before he left, and found out that he live so damn near to chungchenghigh. haha, got chance must go visit him, and of course, wish him all the best at NIE(:
"all things have a good and bad side of it, rather than looking at the bad side of everything and thus missing the good side, why not cherish the time and look on the good side instead?" -by mr tanhongpeng(: i'll remember it, always.
"bitches!" -by mr danielgoh, LOL.
`nineteen07twothousand6, 4FOUR(:
finding truth within lies.
never did i expect this.
i don't wanna listen anymore.
set me free, please.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
i went back to school today, quite alright anyway. miss see seems to be in cheerful mood, i don't know why either, haha. lessons are pretty boring, as usual. however, mr clarence chang is really a rich lad man. he presented a powerpoint presentation using his laptop that uses a pen instead of mouse, which cost $4688 which comes along with a remote control and excluding the keyboard. triple wowwowwow! haha. but mathematics and geography teachers didn't come, so we are so call counted to have free periods. waited for yvonne and the others for about 35min because mr chuakokyong lectured them for so long, and wasted our time.
anyway, we went to pastamania for lunch and met wenyi and stacy there too. ohya, i also saw the xuanliang. LOL, quite good-looking lah, wenyi. haha, headed back to school on jiayan's car, and we squeezed like hell man. the others had their napfa, 5 stations and i stayed at the canteen, doing my maths and chatting with my best friend, clementchua. great chat(: nothing much later, went to the library to borrow some book and returned to my empty home.
P.S. zhengxue'er sucks in aiqinglingdu.
anyway, we went to pastamania for lunch and met wenyi and stacy there too. ohya, i also saw the xuanliang. LOL, quite good-looking lah, wenyi. haha, headed back to school on jiayan's car, and we squeezed like hell man. the others had their napfa, 5 stations and i stayed at the canteen, doing my maths and chatting with my best friend, clementchua. great chat(: nothing much later, went to the library to borrow some book and returned to my empty home.
P.S. zhengxue'er sucks in aiqinglingdu.
`seeing someone going into that arms of yours,
which uu said once belongs to me only,
i can't help it, but wept silently.
i have no choice but to accept it.
because something named reality lies before me.
Monday, July 17, 2006
if uu ask me, what i'm thinking now? i thinking of those sinful ones getting their appropriate punishments for all the sins that they've committed, but i guess, even if they've been punished, it won't be enough to clear all the humiliations and unjustified treatments that others have suffered. i believe, because of such people similiar to 'some' exist, that's why there isn't world peace. they're just some trouble-makers and those who are desperate for attention. and thanks to uu guys out dere, if it hasn't for uu guys, i wouldn't have landed in this state, and it isn't the aftermath of the 2.4km. however, don't get too big-headed, bacause this isn't something to be proud of. besides, acting isn't one of my forte, and i don't see the need to act too, especially when my health is in concern. perhaps, snickering at others when they're at their weakest, is one of your 'impressive fortes'.
`wakeup slaps for SOME, they are in need of those.
SOME- for heaven's sake, don't make yourself look like uu're some angel. and 'uu', fancy pushing all the blames to me when uu also have a part in it, and went around blabbering about those untrue things, do uu even have a sense of shame? or should i say, uu doesn't even recognise the word ' SHAME '.
to another 'uu', uu didn't do any better either. uu know how they are like, and yet uu rather continue clicking with them. foolish, i would say ur act is one without much common sense. thinking that uu've mature after all the happenings, i guess i'm wrong, cause the world gained another fool and that's uu. before saying others, speak for yourself, as always.
yet to one 'uu', frankly speaking, i'll name uu as just another one without much style and thinking of your own. uu're, in fact, just a human being following the footsteps of others. and of course, being manipulated by others. i pity uu, as a matter of fact, for uu do not have a life of your own, but a life of others.
and 'uu' plus 'uu', i'm honestly disappointed with the both of uu. suppposedly to be one of those who really understand who i'm, yet instead, rather believe their nonsensical bullshit. i'm simply no comment bout it, just that i've trust the wrong beings. let it be then, life without uu two can be as eventful as ever. i can't treat it as uu two never entered my life before, but i can ensure that both of uu won't reappear in my life in future, once again.
`wakeup slaps for SOME, they are in need of those.
SOME- for heaven's sake, don't make yourself look like uu're some angel. and 'uu', fancy pushing all the blames to me when uu also have a part in it, and went around blabbering about those untrue things, do uu even have a sense of shame? or should i say, uu doesn't even recognise the word ' SHAME '.
to another 'uu', uu didn't do any better either. uu know how they are like, and yet uu rather continue clicking with them. foolish, i would say ur act is one without much common sense. thinking that uu've mature after all the happenings, i guess i'm wrong, cause the world gained another fool and that's uu. before saying others, speak for yourself, as always.
yet to one 'uu', frankly speaking, i'll name uu as just another one without much style and thinking of your own. uu're, in fact, just a human being following the footsteps of others. and of course, being manipulated by others. i pity uu, as a matter of fact, for uu do not have a life of your own, but a life of others.
and 'uu' plus 'uu', i'm honestly disappointed with the both of uu. suppposedly to be one of those who really understand who i'm, yet instead, rather believe their nonsensical bullshit. i'm simply no comment bout it, just that i've trust the wrong beings. let it be then, life without uu two can be as eventful as ever. i can't treat it as uu two never entered my life before, but i can ensure that both of uu won't reappear in my life in future, once again.
now that i've known what i am to uu,
hopes don't exist anymore.
the last person that will lie to me,
the last person that won't believe me,
it's all uu.
if uu don't even believe me,
i need not assume that others will.
cause uu're that very last person.
hey, back to update my blog le. well, nothing much actually. i went on a siblings' day-out today, headed for "RELOAD" to cut my hair which actually cost me a bomb- $39! and honestly, i don't really see any differences, perhaps, due to the short length of my hair. but my gorgeous sister was quite generous, she helped me paid $4! haha, thanks alot, sister.
so yarh, walked around fareast, then went for the concert at the cityhall field near the supreme court and met up with my eldest sister. the field was populated with human beings and it's like, squeezing here and there. god! full of those china peeps and singaporeans folks, all yellow skins. and my sister and i were suggesting all sorts of weird ways (e.g. stepping on others' feets, saying that we're searching for $500 on the ground, making the vomit effect, raising our hands and say that we wanna leave so that they will make way for us, but instead we move to the front, etc) in order to squeeze our way through the crowd to the front, LOL. and best still, i became JJLIN'S younger sister! way too cool! we didn't really stay long, because it was very stuffy in the crowd and we were sweating profusely plus the foul-smelling odour. i really had a hard time breathing for fresh air in there.
we decided to take a cab and advance to 'lau ba sa' for supper. i guess it has been a long time since the four of us gathered together as one. the feeling was really terrific, i must say. finally, we went home and i had a relapse again, but a minor one. i'm feeling quite alright now(: thanks goodness.
SOME- anything as you guys wish, i don't wanna squabble with you guys, it's worthless and pointless. besides, i don't have the energy to fight it out with every single one of uu out there. by deliberately telling me that 'he' had chose his friends and whatsoever, and parroting me, using unkind words on me, or intentionally doing all sorts of actions just for me, i guess it'll just be another waste of effort, cause i'll try to ignore what's going on around me, even though it's impossible. when i don't even know what's going on, and uu guys assuming that i do, that's nothing i can do either.
so yarh, walked around fareast, then went for the concert at the cityhall field near the supreme court and met up with my eldest sister. the field was populated with human beings and it's like, squeezing here and there. god! full of those china peeps and singaporeans folks, all yellow skins. and my sister and i were suggesting all sorts of weird ways (e.g. stepping on others' feets, saying that we're searching for $500 on the ground, making the vomit effect, raising our hands and say that we wanna leave so that they will make way for us, but instead we move to the front, etc) in order to squeeze our way through the crowd to the front, LOL. and best still, i became JJLIN'S younger sister! way too cool! we didn't really stay long, because it was very stuffy in the crowd and we were sweating profusely plus the foul-smelling odour. i really had a hard time breathing for fresh air in there.
we decided to take a cab and advance to 'lau ba sa' for supper. i guess it has been a long time since the four of us gathered together as one. the feeling was really terrific, i must say. finally, we went home and i had a relapse again, but a minor one. i'm feeling quite alright now(: thanks goodness.
SOME- anything as you guys wish, i don't wanna squabble with you guys, it's worthless and pointless. besides, i don't have the energy to fight it out with every single one of uu out there. by deliberately telling me that 'he' had chose his friends and whatsoever, and parroting me, using unkind words on me, or intentionally doing all sorts of actions just for me, i guess it'll just be another waste of effort, cause i'll try to ignore what's going on around me, even though it's impossible. when i don't even know what's going on, and uu guys assuming that i do, that's nothing i can do either.
those who lied to me, shall remain sinful.
and i will never, at least for now,
forgive them for what they've done to me.
especially uu.
i've came to realise that,
everything that uu've said are just lies.
Friday, July 14, 2006
well, speaking of today, my limbs are better cause i ate the glucose that the doctor gave, it taste pretty nice actually, at least than the pills. however, when i walk, i still have to limp every now and then. but i guess i'll get better when the week starts.
SOME- it's quite a unpleasant day, frankly speaking. and it's all thanks to those ridiculous bunch of losers who had too much time on their hands and spend their time imidating others because they have no complete style of their own, cooking up stories of others to spice up the monotonous lives of theirs, showing people their nauseating attitudes thinking that they are way too cool and hallucinate that others are the ones showing them instead, etc. awfully obvious that there's much more uninteresting stuffs that they do, but i'm simply too busy to note all those down. it's just a waste of my time on these kind of folks.
c`mon peeps, find something more constructive to occupy your time, though i must say your time are not precious. haven't uu guys ever heard of the slogan of being more innovative and creative? well, i guess its time to update yourself and stop parroting others. do show some self-dicipline and manners, for goodness sake. and of course, don't use such harsh words on others, when you, yourself are actually speaking for yourself. it's such a pity that you guys didn't notice, or that no one told you guys before. having such civilised and noble parents, yet disgracing both is a great humiliation. think about it guys.
i do know myself that i'm in no position to lecture you guys about your basic civility, however, being once your friend or perhaps was never one, i do think i should at least do my part. just like anyone, there's also a limitation to my patience and tolerance. if you guys are pulling a prank, watch your actions and words, don't bring it too far. however, in other cases, don't blame me when the time comes.
SOME- it's quite a unpleasant day, frankly speaking. and it's all thanks to those ridiculous bunch of losers who had too much time on their hands and spend their time imidating others because they have no complete style of their own, cooking up stories of others to spice up the monotonous lives of theirs, showing people their nauseating attitudes thinking that they are way too cool and hallucinate that others are the ones showing them instead, etc. awfully obvious that there's much more uninteresting stuffs that they do, but i'm simply too busy to note all those down. it's just a waste of my time on these kind of folks.
c`mon peeps, find something more constructive to occupy your time, though i must say your time are not precious. haven't uu guys ever heard of the slogan of being more innovative and creative? well, i guess its time to update yourself and stop parroting others. do show some self-dicipline and manners, for goodness sake. and of course, don't use such harsh words on others, when you, yourself are actually speaking for yourself. it's such a pity that you guys didn't notice, or that no one told you guys before. having such civilised and noble parents, yet disgracing both is a great humiliation. think about it guys.
i do know myself that i'm in no position to lecture you guys about your basic civility, however, being once your friend or perhaps was never one, i do think i should at least do my part. just like anyone, there's also a limitation to my patience and tolerance. if you guys are pulling a prank, watch your actions and words, don't bring it too far. however, in other cases, don't blame me when the time comes.
your change caused me to give all up.
yet another you, appeared before me.
i'm blessed to have you.
(:
Thursday, July 13, 2006
today, i went to skool by myself and guess what? i've made lotsa friends with the trees, haha. supposedly, i'm having mc today too, but i don't wanna stay at home and face my mama and uncle, so i've decided to head for skool and be with my friends.
had pe for the first two periods, but i cant pe, so sian. and i ended up having breathing difficulties and numb all over AGAIN! damn`it can. but luckily for me, limying and honqi they all are just around me at that particular point of time. so yarh, mr tanhongpeng and mdm gohbeelian brought me to the sickbay at general office to rest and drink the awful milo kos i haven't had any breakfast. honqi and xinhui accompanied me because one is first-aider and the other is not doing pe. so they helped me regulate my breathing and regain my sense of touch. the feeling of going numb all over is so horrible, i hate it. so we stayed a longer and xinhui fed me milo cause i haven't really regain my strength. still, special thanks to xinhui and honqi! and of course, mr tanhongpeng and mdm gohbeelian(:
so returned to class, and seriously, quite happie cause i guess many people are quite concerned bout me, unlike some who i shall not named, cause it's meaningless. so yarh, limbs are quite weak and often have giddy spells/breathing difficulties. i'm afraid that all these will affect me, in future and i can't join any sports events. bless me!
SOME- it's alright if you guys doesn't really like me or care bout me, cause frankly speaking, i'm used to life without you guys already. sometimes, uu guys treat me like a friend and on other times, i'm just like a dirt. if humans are kind in nature, then why do such people like uu guys exist in this a world? i'm not implying i'm an angel, but stop acting like a kind soul when uu guys are not, it really peeves me. don't treat me like an idiot as if i don't know what's going on and what uu guys are talking about behind my back. for goodness sake, it's all pretty obvious that uu guys are just putting up a show for others to see and let others think how good uu guys are. uu guys may be influential to peeps, but only my true friends will not be taken in by all your ludicrous lies, for they genuinely understand me for who i am.
had pe for the first two periods, but i cant pe, so sian. and i ended up having breathing difficulties and numb all over AGAIN! damn`it can. but luckily for me, limying and honqi they all are just around me at that particular point of time. so yarh, mr tanhongpeng and mdm gohbeelian brought me to the sickbay at general office to rest and drink the awful milo kos i haven't had any breakfast. honqi and xinhui accompanied me because one is first-aider and the other is not doing pe. so they helped me regulate my breathing and regain my sense of touch. the feeling of going numb all over is so horrible, i hate it. so we stayed a longer and xinhui fed me milo cause i haven't really regain my strength. still, special thanks to xinhui and honqi! and of course, mr tanhongpeng and mdm gohbeelian(:
so returned to class, and seriously, quite happie cause i guess many people are quite concerned bout me, unlike some who i shall not named, cause it's meaningless. so yarh, limbs are quite weak and often have giddy spells/breathing difficulties. i'm afraid that all these will affect me, in future and i can't join any sports events. bless me!
SOME- it's alright if you guys doesn't really like me or care bout me, cause frankly speaking, i'm used to life without you guys already. sometimes, uu guys treat me like a friend and on other times, i'm just like a dirt. if humans are kind in nature, then why do such people like uu guys exist in this a world? i'm not implying i'm an angel, but stop acting like a kind soul when uu guys are not, it really peeves me. don't treat me like an idiot as if i don't know what's going on and what uu guys are talking about behind my back. for goodness sake, it's all pretty obvious that uu guys are just putting up a show for others to see and let others think how good uu guys are. uu guys may be influential to peeps, but only my true friends will not be taken in by all your ludicrous lies, for they genuinely understand me for who i am.
uu din even ask or bother to see if i'm alright.
i'm nothing to uu in your heart, but she's everything.
this time round, i had enough of it already.
it's time to end it all.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
okay, at least i'm well enough to update my COOL blog, haha. but type kinda slow lah, my limbs are weak. =.= but yarh. it was a disastrous yesterday! had napfa test 2.4km at yishun stadium and i ran no.7, and it's disgusting number 7.
anyway, i fainted when i tried to get up and return to the shelter when it started drizzling. then don't know who carried me back to the spectators' seats. goodness, the feeling was god damn yuckish. but luckily for me, my friends were there. they fanned me, poured icy cold water on my face, fed me drink water which i spilt all out, etc. i thought i felt better and wanted to try getting up, only to end up falling down. so later on, i think junhe carried my and lay me on the floor. i'm semi-conscious later on, but that's also the worst, cause i couldn't feel a thing my whole body, even when my friends pinched me hard or whatsoever (according to what they say). mr tanhongpeng was there too, and he told lame jokes, which i somehow heard in my state, i smiled obviously, and thought how lame can he get.
haha. then i don't what they do to me also, cause seriously, i couldn't feel anything, i thought i was paralysed, argh. then i got too agitated all of a sudden, at the thought of somethings, and had great breathing difficulty and all tensed up. i cried, then i saw junhe cried too, poor him. i guess its all those stupid thinkings that got me so emotional. frankly speaking, i'm really very petrified.
don't know long later, the paramedics came and talked nonsensical stuffs and wanted me to let go of junhe's hand. obviously, i don't want, but i had no choice i guess. and my hand touched the cold, rubber gloves of some unfamiliar baddies. they still put some pig-liked mask over me, and i couldn't breathe at all, totally. so yarh, they drove mie to the dreadful hospital, along with mr tanhongpeng and mdmgohbeelian, but no more junhe.
i was being put under observation for a few hours, and 2 doctors and nurses attend to me. gave me drank some glucose, but it doesn't appeal to me cause my throat was damn dry. but yarh, my friends (crystal, ruting, grace, yoketing, songrong, guanfeng, pk) came and visited me, i was quite touched, in fact. then later, nothing much.
stayed at home today and recuperate, received miss see's call to ask whether i'm alright, this and that. besides that, also received quite a number of smses from classmates and friends(: thank billions, guys!
anyway, i fainted when i tried to get up and return to the shelter when it started drizzling. then don't know who carried me back to the spectators' seats. goodness, the feeling was god damn yuckish. but luckily for me, my friends were there. they fanned me, poured icy cold water on my face, fed me drink water which i spilt all out, etc. i thought i felt better and wanted to try getting up, only to end up falling down. so later on, i think junhe carried my and lay me on the floor. i'm semi-conscious later on, but that's also the worst, cause i couldn't feel a thing my whole body, even when my friends pinched me hard or whatsoever (according to what they say). mr tanhongpeng was there too, and he told lame jokes, which i somehow heard in my state, i smiled obviously, and thought how lame can he get.
haha. then i don't what they do to me also, cause seriously, i couldn't feel anything, i thought i was paralysed, argh. then i got too agitated all of a sudden, at the thought of somethings, and had great breathing difficulty and all tensed up. i cried, then i saw junhe cried too, poor him. i guess its all those stupid thinkings that got me so emotional. frankly speaking, i'm really very petrified.
don't know long later, the paramedics came and talked nonsensical stuffs and wanted me to let go of junhe's hand. obviously, i don't want, but i had no choice i guess. and my hand touched the cold, rubber gloves of some unfamiliar baddies. they still put some pig-liked mask over me, and i couldn't breathe at all, totally. so yarh, they drove mie to the dreadful hospital, along with mr tanhongpeng and mdmgohbeelian, but no more junhe.
i was being put under observation for a few hours, and 2 doctors and nurses attend to me. gave me drank some glucose, but it doesn't appeal to me cause my throat was damn dry. but yarh, my friends (crystal, ruting, grace, yoketing, songrong, guanfeng, pk) came and visited me, i was quite touched, in fact. then later, nothing much.
stayed at home today and recuperate, received miss see's call to ask whether i'm alright, this and that. besides that, also received quite a number of smses from classmates and friends(: thank billions, guys!
whenever i need uu, uu're always not there for me.
and at my verge of my subconscious-ness,
i can only think, where on earth are uu?
i guess, i mean nothing to uu in your heart.
i give up, it's time.
prove me wrong, will uu?
Monday, July 10, 2006
haha, i guess peeps out dere are seriously having a hard time trying to figure out how my blog works, which is kinda dumb. i mean if they doesn't understand, i can tell them when they ask me, which is what they failed to do. lol, but anyway, it's a blue monday morning. it's raining, but i don't mind, cause i love the rain.
we had d&t for the first three periods at the d&t room. as i was the one in front to lead the class to the room, shiting, limying, xinhui and i purposely go to the wrong route, and we are laughing our heads off when philipng called us back. HAHA. stupid teacher. it's the first lesson and he actually called us to start thinking about ideas, solutions, problems, etc. it's so troublesome and irritating, especially when the room is like an antartica. and our class went insane whenever he did some dumb actions and speak/scold us, i guess he's pretty pissed off by us. great job, guys! and unexpectedly, halfway through, 4d came in. it was like =.=. but anyway, who really gives a damn? certainly not mie.
so yarh. nothing much. got really flared up during lessontime for some whatever reasons/things that i've seen, haha, i guess same goes for limying. got a headache later on, but it's alright after some time. nothing much, uninteresting lessons as usual, and i went back home on my own(:
we had d&t for the first three periods at the d&t room. as i was the one in front to lead the class to the room, shiting, limying, xinhui and i purposely go to the wrong route, and we are laughing our heads off when philipng called us back. HAHA. stupid teacher. it's the first lesson and he actually called us to start thinking about ideas, solutions, problems, etc. it's so troublesome and irritating, especially when the room is like an antartica. and our class went insane whenever he did some dumb actions and speak/scold us, i guess he's pretty pissed off by us. great job, guys! and unexpectedly, halfway through, 4d came in. it was like =.=. but anyway, who really gives a damn? certainly not mie.
so yarh. nothing much. got really flared up during lessontime for some whatever reasons/things that i've seen, haha, i guess same goes for limying. got a headache later on, but it's alright after some time. nothing much, uninteresting lessons as usual, and i went back home on my own(:
i'm in love with your back.
cause that's the only thing i get to see now.
but i'm already contented.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
to start off, i had my very first sore eye and woke up late this morning. it's partly my fault and partly not, because i did set my alarm but i forgot to turn off my silent mode. what stupidity again! but anyway, i rushed my way through and hailed a cab to school. and guess what? the fare was $6.60! goodness. and of course, i did read about the fare increase of the cabs. but it's like so shocking, cause everytime i took cab to school when i'm late or whatever, it doesn't exceed $5. well, i can't do anything either. perhaps, when i'm jobless, i'll consider driving a cab, lol.
anyway, i reached school and meet with the usual clinque and go for CO practice. it's pretty good. then, we went to khatib central for our "lunch" which is either coke, sprite or milo, and went to buy the acessories for our hair for we are tying up later on. rushed back to school to have a shower and changed, board the petite bus and we have to squeeze 7people in 5seats. how wonderful can it be? but we did have fun on the way there, singing throughout and the bus is only filled with our beautiful voices, excluding junhe! haha.
chungchengmain is equivalent to a stove with its fire on. it's damn warm, everyone are sweating like running water. however, we survive through till our performance time. while waiting for mr yap to finish his long-winded speech, shauna and i was like having hysterics, laughing non-stop because we are speaking hokkien and saying some unpleasant yet true things about some pig, lol.
and finally, it's time to perform. pretty nervous as usual, there's countless people seated at the seats below, c`mon. grace's solo part was disastrous, she went off tune, but i guess, can't help it either. the 'trumpets' are like some cannons exploding, kinda messed up. the second song, quite alright. but i caught some chungchengmain students sniggered at us when we're playing. i do know that they are abe to play the second song well, because i went to their concert earlier in june.
and honestly, it's the worst humiliation during my golden years of my CO days. i've always been proud to be in CO and performed with confidence. yet, today, the audience actually snickered at my performance. it's really maddening. i know that we may be inferior to them in academics and some cca, but that's doesn't they have the right to laugh at us, and making a fool out of us. getting first in compeitions, doesn't mean uu'll always be the best forever. and as a matter of fact, it only proves that chungchengmain students do not even know the basic of being a good audience. they're simply too arrogant, even the teachers there are the same. we went there for rehearsal and borrowed four bows out of their five, yet when one is missing, they are saying that if they can't find it, we have to pay for it. what is this nonsense? doesn't we have our own money to purchase all these normal intruments, despite the fact that our intruments are much better than theirs? although having excel in their academics, it's obvious that they didn't excel in their character building. what such sad cases.
and mr tanhongpeng said something really true, though it's kinda harsh, "since you guys are unsatisfied, might as well pull up your socks and prove yourself to them next year, that uu can also achieve the same good result as them." it's really true, and that really do motivated mie, i'm going to go for all my CO practices in future! lol, thanks mr tanhongpeng(: just uu guys wait and see, chungchengmain, next year, it'll be our year, not yours anymore. hahaha.
okay, to continue, went back to school, and we are cheesed off by mdm teo and the bus driver. both want to go back to school as fast as possible, and we forsaken our dear junhe behind. lol, he even chased after our bus and both are so unfeeling, and dun give a damn at all. argh! reached school, took pictures, bathed, and home sweet home(:
anyway, i reached school and meet with the usual clinque and go for CO practice. it's pretty good. then, we went to khatib central for our "lunch" which is either coke, sprite or milo, and went to buy the acessories for our hair for we are tying up later on. rushed back to school to have a shower and changed, board the petite bus and we have to squeeze 7people in 5seats. how wonderful can it be? but we did have fun on the way there, singing throughout and the bus is only filled with our beautiful voices, excluding junhe! haha.
chungchengmain is equivalent to a stove with its fire on. it's damn warm, everyone are sweating like running water. however, we survive through till our performance time. while waiting for mr yap to finish his long-winded speech, shauna and i was like having hysterics, laughing non-stop because we are speaking hokkien and saying some unpleasant yet true things about some pig, lol.
and finally, it's time to perform. pretty nervous as usual, there's countless people seated at the seats below, c`mon. grace's solo part was disastrous, she went off tune, but i guess, can't help it either. the 'trumpets' are like some cannons exploding, kinda messed up. the second song, quite alright. but i caught some chungchengmain students sniggered at us when we're playing. i do know that they are abe to play the second song well, because i went to their concert earlier in june.
and honestly, it's the worst humiliation during my golden years of my CO days. i've always been proud to be in CO and performed with confidence. yet, today, the audience actually snickered at my performance. it's really maddening. i know that we may be inferior to them in academics and some cca, but that's doesn't they have the right to laugh at us, and making a fool out of us. getting first in compeitions, doesn't mean uu'll always be the best forever. and as a matter of fact, it only proves that chungchengmain students do not even know the basic of being a good audience. they're simply too arrogant, even the teachers there are the same. we went there for rehearsal and borrowed four bows out of their five, yet when one is missing, they are saying that if they can't find it, we have to pay for it. what is this nonsense? doesn't we have our own money to purchase all these normal intruments, despite the fact that our intruments are much better than theirs? although having excel in their academics, it's obvious that they didn't excel in their character building. what such sad cases.
and mr tanhongpeng said something really true, though it's kinda harsh, "since you guys are unsatisfied, might as well pull up your socks and prove yourself to them next year, that uu can also achieve the same good result as them." it's really true, and that really do motivated mie, i'm going to go for all my CO practices in future! lol, thanks mr tanhongpeng(: just uu guys wait and see, chungchengmain, next year, it'll be our year, not yours anymore. hahaha.
okay, to continue, went back to school, and we are cheesed off by mdm teo and the bus driver. both want to go back to school as fast as possible, and we forsaken our dear junhe behind. lol, he even chased after our bus and both are so unfeeling, and dun give a damn at all. argh! reached school, took pictures, bathed, and home sweet home(:
`i placed my trust in uu and believed everything that uu've said.
yet in the end, it turns out that all that uu've said are lies.
i'm a fool to believe uu, and let uu toy my feelings.
the only truth is- everything's a lie.
hey guys. it has been a long time since i've last blogged,which is about march perhaps? my apology to everyone though. well, suddenly have the thought of creating my blog because i missed my days when i'm blogging, peeps who taggied (not to mention those irritating spammers), and of course, able to change my blogskin every now and then, haha. seriously, i know this blogskin of mine is kinda weird, or should i rephrase and say, it's extremely weird? lol, but it's also why it's unique, isn't it? having weird style of my own, at least some cats won't copy me.
anyway, let me just clarify something in my first post:
-no spammers/unknown welcome here, use your name.
-it's my blog, and thus i have my freedom of speech.
-anyone's who is unhappy with my posts or me, feel free to leave.
-keep your negative comments to yourself, in another words, shut up.
-although i can't stop those who i detest from visiting my blog, but i do have every rights to voice out my dismay in my posts, either uu accept it, or get lost.
these apply to everyone, including me, myself. however, if some freaks who don't understand these or choose to ignore these, don't blame me for being harsh or offensive.
well, that's all for today because the clock of my computer is 0211, 8july2oo6. and yeah, tomorrow still have chungcheng's 67th anniversary performance. it's gonna be another busy-buzzing-bee day!
anyway, let me just clarify something in my first post:
-no spammers/unknown welcome here, use your name.
-it's my blog, and thus i have my freedom of speech.
-anyone's who is unhappy with my posts or me, feel free to leave.
-keep your negative comments to yourself, in another words, shut up.
-although i can't stop those who i detest from visiting my blog, but i do have every rights to voice out my dismay in my posts, either uu accept it, or get lost.
these apply to everyone, including me, myself. however, if some freaks who don't understand these or choose to ignore these, don't blame me for being harsh or offensive.
well, that's all for today because the clock of my computer is 0211, 8july2oo6. and yeah, tomorrow still have chungcheng's 67th anniversary performance. it's gonna be another busy-buzzing-bee day!